First Post in 2016
So I just posted my first post in 2016 IN the last day of 2016. My last post was in May 2015, though. Hahaha.
So... yeah.
I just posted this for the sake of adding 2016 to my blog's history. All in all, I can't say 2016 was a shitty year for me. In fact, it's been an awesome year. I got to learn a lot of new things and new responsibilities... It was a good year, really.
I want to write something to remind myself in the end of 2017. I want to say stuff like, "Look, your mind is all messed up again at the end of 2016 despite all the great things you do and all of those opportunities, so I hope you spend the last day of 2017 in a better state of mind!"
Yep. My mind is always my greatest enemy AND my greatest ally. She just doesn't know when is the appropriate time to get all messed up. She never know. I tried hard to keep it in control, but last time I did on 2012 through 2014, it all went to hell. I've been living more laid back life in 2015, but decided to be better person in 2016--you know, take more challenge in life, trying to recognize what happens in my mind once again. And... as I said, it all messed up.
I'm kinda afraid of starting 2017, seriously. Like, I can sense my mind will acting up again and nothing I can do against it. It just... It work better if I'm not trying to control it. So many inspiration, so many ideas, so many discoveries... But then, if I just let it loose, I might end up crazy at the end of the year. Worse, I might lose function despite all the inspiration. I don't know, it's confusing and it's scary.
I don't know what to expect in 2017. I just hope I'm not going full crazy. (although sometimes, I feel going crazy wouldn't be that bad... right?) Argh, I want to cuss so bad. Just, karasuhibari in 2017, just... just keep your mind in check. Don't be broken. Keep sane.
Argh, this is not making any sense at all.
Need to clear my mind ASAP.
So, adios for now.
2017 only a couple hours away.
-karasuhibari-
So... yeah.
I just posted this for the sake of adding 2016 to my blog's history. All in all, I can't say 2016 was a shitty year for me. In fact, it's been an awesome year. I got to learn a lot of new things and new responsibilities... It was a good year, really.
I want to write something to remind myself in the end of 2017. I want to say stuff like, "Look, your mind is all messed up again at the end of 2016 despite all the great things you do and all of those opportunities, so I hope you spend the last day of 2017 in a better state of mind!"
Yep. My mind is always my greatest enemy AND my greatest ally. She just doesn't know when is the appropriate time to get all messed up. She never know. I tried hard to keep it in control, but last time I did on 2012 through 2014, it all went to hell. I've been living more laid back life in 2015, but decided to be better person in 2016--you know, take more challenge in life, trying to recognize what happens in my mind once again. And... as I said, it all messed up.
I'm kinda afraid of starting 2017, seriously. Like, I can sense my mind will acting up again and nothing I can do against it. It just... It work better if I'm not trying to control it. So many inspiration, so many ideas, so many discoveries... But then, if I just let it loose, I might end up crazy at the end of the year. Worse, I might lose function despite all the inspiration. I don't know, it's confusing and it's scary.
I don't know what to expect in 2017. I just hope I'm not going full crazy. (although sometimes, I feel going crazy wouldn't be that bad... right?) Argh, I want to cuss so bad. Just, karasuhibari in 2017, just... just keep your mind in check. Don't be broken. Keep sane.
Argh, this is not making any sense at all.
Need to clear my mind ASAP.
So, adios for now.
2017 only a couple hours away.
-karasuhibari-
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